accidentally found sth...

new word for me but maybe not for u....

~Alter ego~

it means 知己..

quite meaningful yea..

hehehe..

haiz...

arh!!!!!!!!!
sad sad sad...
disappointed frustrated disappointed..
sigui ah beng~~!!
how come u misunderstood me or us until so so so serious...
what we got thg din tell her..what sometimes we out din jio her..what she sad she bo sim she get hurt...shoot...
now who's the one get hurt huh?!!
now whose fault who made the situation lik tis huh?!!
do u noe what happened when i was working in takiong..
do u noe what happened to us..
do u noe what happened next..
jz nope...
so sad~~~!!! arh...
i wish i can tel u everythg..
i wish u understand..
i wish i wish...
i wish u were thr when i'm having my 18th bday!!
i hate being misunderstood..
i hate not being understand..
especially when u're one of my besties..
but u jz ALWAYS don understand...
hmmmmmmmmm...

11.04.09

work until 1am sth sth...
today...midnite or early morning..
at around 1.20am...jz after work..
u noe whr i went???
OMG!!
tat was my very very first time...
i went to.....
erm...CLUBBING..
hahahax..

fanie dear calm down calm down..huhu..
i forgot the name..is somewhr in padungan..
is a corner shop beside a bookstore o wd de..
an expensive one..hahax..

erm..comment ah..
loud remixed music? still okie for me^^
people dancing? break dance..'close close' dance..erm..their business..
wine o beer o whatever? erm..too guai or too stupid so didnt drink ANYTHING...hahax..but actually gt two 'mouth' of dono wd drink only lar..contain alcohol lo..keke..

jz the only thg i dont like is the smell thr...super duper cigarette smell..my clothes all smelly smelly..sienzzz...
n ho..have to go silently cannot tel parents de..doesnt feel gud..so i'm going to tel mummy soon..hahax..

actually going wit collegue again the next night de..but end up i rejected...dont really noe y too..huhu..

future...

I made my decison...
it's Form 6...
and i'll strive for it...
not going to think too much on others anymore..
kindly bless me...
and prove tat i didnt make wrong decision...

"....believe in yourself, and you will fly high..."

3.00am ~ just finish cooking my maggie mee as my 'breakfast'
3.25am ~ got MAYDAY on tvbs-G!! is a ceremony+concert in taiwan..
五月天..真的好爱你们哦..
听你们的歌..就会有一种莫名的安全感..心会跟着静下来..和身体的每一个器官一起感动..
阿信那把, 或许称不上技巧超级纯熟, 但却可以感动人心的声音..
加上怪兽, 石头, 玛莎, 冠佑 和 吉他, 贝斯, 鼓, 联合拼凑成的曲..
真的十分, 超级, 的棒!!!

谢谢你们...让我终于在遇见他后流下第一滴眼泪...让我的心情平静了许多...

05.04.09

today..
working at tea room with marshall n jase..
他和他的她去了那里..叫了一杯strawberry ice soda...
其实自从上次,他的她和朋友去了那里后..我就有心理准备有一天他们会一起去拍拖啦..
只是当我说了"hello welcome"后..太突然..来不及控制自己的情绪...
幸好marshall在..请了他帮我去柜台take order...
而他们..居然还选了最靠近柜台的high table...
但是过后我还是坚持自己serve水...
坚持微笑..坚持和同事们的互动..
而且还要跟besties通简讯..偶尔还故意露出一点笑容..就为了让你知道,没了你的爱,我依然可以快乐, 甚至可以更快乐...
hmmm...没什么啦..就..心里怪怪的..有点..不舒服...
毕竟..喜欢过...

想起..你就这样放弃了我..
想起很多很多...

难道你看见我..一点感觉都没有吗?
突然有点怀疑..我真的有完全放下你吗?
(我猜应该有吧..这些情绪应该都是很自然的啦...)

心里有一点点..好像憋住了什么..又好像没什么..
好像有一点点..想哭..又没有很想哭...
记得之前你发简讯给我..要我别放希望了..
我还理直气壮的回复你早就没放希望咯...
当时的我真的是这么的毫不犹豫耶..哈哈..

小手有一点点烫伤了...你却不在我身边疼我...
虽然我烫伤那么一点点纯粹是不小心啦...hmmm~~

我不怕你看到我写的这些..
但或许你根本没想过要看..
或许早就忘了有这么一个地方..
不管..我只是想抒发情绪...
WHATEVER~~wdv..
是你会用的词语..
就这样...

相信我自己放下了...
这些情绪..就让它今晚跟我在一起吧..
就今晚而已...
没事的啦...
kek emo~~

random post..huhu..

那天做梦...
梦见一个很久很久没见的朋友...
懒得多去述说这个梦..
记得最清楚的..
唯独是那握着手的扎实感...
~*废话*~

突然觉得..对于目前的生活有点不满意..
除了偶尔跟朋友出去做有的没的..就是和妈咪混在一起..(当然..我很愿意..)
再来就是做家务..和到tea room去工作..
其实..说空虚不空虚..
说扎实..也不怎么扎实...
要做的事应该还多得是...
只是突然有一点点想赶快读书..
跟朋友一起打拼..哈哈!
就一点点而已啦...嘻嘻..

有首歌的歌词是这样的...
[ My life 一直在等待 空荡的口袋
想在里面放一份爱
....... ...... ]