20 dec 2008

today ben ben going back to hometown le...
we actually planned to stay together for some time after check out from damai...but knot..
ben ben's grandma bday..his cousin going to drive them all back to celebrate wit his grandma..so...we checked out around 12 then straight away go back..bt of cos after tat 3 gals did find a place to sit down, drink+eat, feel lik talk o share our feel bt we all was lik no energy n mood to say anything yet..haha
i noe we all felt sad bout it..even ben ben himself oso din mean to go back so early..
honestly..i was super sad...

27 dec 08, he wil report himself to ns in bintulu...it going to take him 3 months...tis is so so long for me, o i should say for us...
11 march 09,the end of ns...for sure n of cos he wil back to his hometown...
3 days after,14 march, is my 18th bday...i wish tat he can come n celebrate together...bt of cos tis is super hard n even impossible...n i don even noe when is he coming back...feel super super miss him...

in the journey coming back..everyone was so quiet..i tried to concentrate in driving..sometimes i drive fast..sorry dear fan n xis if i scared two of u...hope no next time..hahax...i've tried so so hard to say some words to make all of us start talking n stop being so sad lor...
when we reached ben ben house, n when he say bye..i can feel tat 3 of us started crying silently..no one can hide the sadness..we seems to b so weak yea..jz few months bt..hahax..

ben ben sent a long sweet msg...made me so touched n cried more..actually...i used to sms wit him everyday le..cant really imagine the time he go for ns..mayb we cant really sms..omg..haiz..
for sure...all of us gonna miss him lotzzzzzzzzzz...
so many words in my heart...cant really express them all...

ben ben..
remember take care urself..
n keep the star wit u..
miss u lotz...
love love...